Ah erp..

Hmm, been the thoughtful few days.. a good friend of mine passed away in a swimming accident and it has suddenly brought the very bad reality that lurks behind the veneer of calm that we have for our lives. As they say, these things aint supposed to be happening to us - it happens to them and them a lot, but never to us.. But death that cruel feller, depending on your religious denomination, is a grim reaper or is a slightly chubby guy with a gigantic moustache riding a beast with two horns and carrying a mace, whatever, seems to have this habit of lurking beneath quietly and makes his appearance rather too suddenly in our lives.. We read the newspapers about death - but that is death as it happens to them not to us - the loss of a loved one, a friend, a close relative, family, makes it here and now, we got to face the fact that we do not usually need to, that we are very very mortal and this is to have our mortality thrust upon us.

 

Leads to how to lead life - as a now and present form, or a form which looks at the future which we may never get to enjoy. I would think that our life is an endless cycle to look at the future, with the passing of each generation is the coming through of the next generation. Life in its simplest, exists for the future - the single celled amoeba, at some level, exists so it can split and become two - the future. We, humans, worry the most about what happens when there isnt a future, when the generation becomes the last generation - most of our popular hollywood disaster movies, focus on how civilisation as we know it can be exterminated or ended, with no future. That seems to be the universal fear.

 

I am rambling now - with no thought on how this post will go forward. I can do the usual and crack a couple of nasty ones for the general public, but hey this is an introspective piece written exclusively for venting some of the anger and fear that I feel right now (yup, both of them conflicting emotions at the same time - anger that a friend has been taken away at the prime of his life and fear that the same could happen to me or to someone close). This makes one cherish what one has all the more - the good things in life, the happiness, the joy and whatever else. Life too often is spent worrying too much - and I think I should spend more time enjoying life as opposed to worrying about it.